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Film by Om Fanfiroy

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Art Institute of Chicago

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represents

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DESIRE
Desire... like thirst, a great desperate feeling and need (Om Fanfiroy).

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Chapter One

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Как же ты разговариваешь с ним?

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Do you really think this is a disease?

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Deaf boy illness

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So are you back from summer camp?

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More... 2 days ago.

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Was it fun?

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Yes.

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A lot of pretty girls

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they miss you there.
Yes.

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Of course)

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Juicy babes broke free.
Yes.

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So did you like it there?

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No.

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Wow.

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Totally sucks.

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That's what I thought. I spoke to Early
he says the same thing.

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Earley Grierson?

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Hello, we are your new neighbors.

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I'm Diane. Nice to meet you.

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I want to send my son to a local school.

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This is a good school.

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I would like him to find good friends.
Maybe it will be your son?

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Son,... come here.
I want you to meet someone.

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-How old is Earl?

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Turn up the volume on your hearing aid.
Can you hear?

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Come here.

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Mother?

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They are the same age.

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-Do you like video games?

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He always plays his console in front of the TV.

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This is my son.

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I want you to meet our new neighbors.

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Do you hear what I'm saying?

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What?

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Come here.

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Like this.

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Where did you come from around my neck?

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Are you gay?

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I'm Early.

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Early.

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I want to ask something

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you have.

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Well, that is...

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you

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really like guys?

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You shouldn't make fun of him.

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We are not on the same path with such people) (mockery)

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He's not bad

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no matter what you say.

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Why do you always shield him?

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You know what

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I think you're gay too.
You're just afraid to admit it to yourself. Shut up.

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You and Early under the tree, smack, smack.

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Shut up! Oh, my first love has arrived.

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Then you get married. And meet old age together, two old fagots.

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Give it back!

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-make me!
- Give it back!

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Have you just come to terms with it?

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Shut up!

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You kissed him, right?

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That's what you do.

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I'm not gay.

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No.

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You're just a fagot.

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What's the difference?

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I don't know.

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Tell me.

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Fine.

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Considering the fact that we are going to be friends.

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Where did you get this from?

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My father gave it to me last year.

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Why have I never seen your father?

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he left us.

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Why?

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I don't know.

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He just left...
and did not return.

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Without saying goodbye.

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Without things.

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Do you miss him?

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Sometimes.

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But I'm sure he's happy now.
Wherever he is.

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You could be lenient

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I don't think so.

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What's the matter? Have you kissed boys?

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Why are you such a moron?
Where did you get the idea?

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I just...Did the same thing as you.

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Joe, are you sure?

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What?

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That Earlie and I are friends?

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Well yes, of course.
-That's right

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Fuck you

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So cute

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What?

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Could you kiss a guy?

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You already asked.

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Why not?

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Because I don't want you to become gay.

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What if I wanted

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just help a friend?

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Do you really think this is a disease?

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You're cute

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Why?

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Deaf boy illness

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Chapter two

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What's your name?

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Smoking room.

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Where are you from?

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Ford

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What brings you here?

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Fate

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I believe in fate.

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The distance between us

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Feel at home.

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Did you run away from home?

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Push.

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I think you and I are very similar.

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Are you lonely?

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Loneliness is my best friend.

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Will you take a shower?

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Yes, just...
I'm alone.

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Yes.

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How old are you?

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17.

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I thought you might want to talk.

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Certainly. Let's.

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You are married?

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What does it feel like to love someone?

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Being married does not mean being in love.

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Love sucks the juices out of you.

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But at the same time...

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What?

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Love can be beautiful.

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If we know who to look for.

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I want to find someone who will accept my life, my mistakes.

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Someone I can look into the eyes
reveal your secrets and know that they are safe.

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What are your secrets?

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Why are you here?

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Where are you going?

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Idaho.

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What's there in Idaho?

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Nothing.

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Then why are you going there?

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Sometimes "nothing" leads us to something.

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About you.

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Where are you going?

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The further the better.

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Does your family miss you?

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Hardly.

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Nobody needs me.

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I once liked a girl.

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But she didn't pay attention to me.

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I'm too ugly, I guess.

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You are beautiful.

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Beautiful hair.

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Wonderful eyes.

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Gorgeous body.

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There will be many people who will admire you.
Do you think so?

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Yes.

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Can I ask you something?

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Yes.

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Who are you?

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Don't know.

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Never thought about it.

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Why?

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I'm afraid of the answer.

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And you?

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I have to leave before dawn.

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Will I go with you?

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Another time we meet

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I'll pick you up.

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Ты думаешь, это будет?

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Did you believe in fate before?

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Wait.

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I didn't tell you about my secret.

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It's OK.

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I already guessed it myself.

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Take care of yourself.

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And take care of yourself.

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The distance between us

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Chapter Three

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Life is...
complicated thing.

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You try over and over again

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until you understand.

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My love is bleeding.

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Last kiss

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You'll do this again!

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Someone might have seen it.

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What about freedom?

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Don't do that in public.
Clear?

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There's no one here.

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-Don't do that.
-Fine?

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Okay, okay.

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Why did you want to see me?

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I'm moving to Florida.

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No, you're not going anywhere...

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Именно  так.

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-No...
-Yes.

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For what?

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My father has left, he will arrive here on Monday.

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I know it sucks but...

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So...

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this is the last time we will be together.

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It looks like it.

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I moved here just to be near you.

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I know.

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So on my last day here I want to be with you.

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Do you remember swimming across the lake?

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and almost drowned.

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Yes...

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scared me.

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I thought I had lost you forever.

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Thank you for saving me.

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I will never forget all the good things we had.

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how we rode bicycles,

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went to the lake

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played video games.

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Yes,

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it was great.

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I'll miss you.

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I will...

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miss.

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It's time for me to go.
I haven't packed my things yet.

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You shouldn't do this.

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No need.

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Will we ever see each other again?

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I hope so.

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I wonder if love exists?

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And can we distinguish it from physical desire?

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More importantly,

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Why are we even looking for someone?

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What benefit will we even get?
from the desire to find someone?

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Pain from what was done, due to fear and shame
all that remains for us.

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And yet everyone wants to be desired,

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and experience love.

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Maybe I'm just a moth
flying towards the glimpse of a lighthouse.

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I'll keep trying until I find exactly my place.

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To ultimately hide a darker, darker secret.

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But, on the other hand,

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Can a person do without undisclosed secrets?

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Perhaps we are all looking for that glimpse of a beacon.

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Before we understand

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how to live

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but it will be too late.

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Maybe this is the meaning of life.

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Like many other things,

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for that matter.

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Early,

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Do you believe in life?

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Now.

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I started by saying that I lost faith a long time ago.

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Last kiss

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Translation - rw18,
Subtitles and timing - Anatoly Ashmarin.